After remembering my username and resetting my password, I have made my way back into my blog after many years. As displayed in below posts, I have quite a few saved blog posts that never made it to the front page. So I decided to dig through and see if there was anything I thought worthy of being displayed to the public.
To share briefly what has been going on with me, I have been living with Ryan & Janet Price for a little over a year now, and I love it! I have an amazing boyfriend, Rob, who I met at the Apple store where I have been working as a manager for almost a year. On the surface, everything has been great! God really has blessed me in so many ways and I really should have nothing to complain about. However, I have been going through a very challenging time.
As backwards as this sounds, everything has been so great (on the surface) that I have found myself in the worst place I have ever been spiritually, physically, and emotionally. I have taken for granted the amazing things that God has blessed me with, and used them as an excuse to ‘check out’ and really just coast along. I have not challenged myself spiritually and my heart has really grown hard towards the things of God. I can see so clearly right now how this has negatively effected many relationships in my life. I have been struggling with anxiety, doubt, and indifference in almost every area of my life.
All that said, I know God is still with me. He is holding true to the promises in His word and I do believe that he is drawing me back to him in a big way. God is making it very clear to me that I have many gifts that I am not putting into practice, and I need to step out of my comfort zone and be bold.
God has put some amazing people in my life at this time, who I know are there by His plan to shake me out of this place. But I can’t be fooled. I don’t want to come to rely on people and then blame them, or the church that I am not growing. My growth is completely dependent on God and my faith in Him.
I have been visiting The Gallery Church in Baltimore for the past couple weeks. I love their values and emphasis on community. Below is a worship song that was played at The Gallery yesterday, and I felt that the words were so on point with what I have been going through, so I wanted to share :)